Back when we were kids, there was a time when Japanese animation broke through the Philippine airwaves. For me personally, it started with Sailormoon and for the boys, I think it was Slam Dunk or Ghost Fighter... Well anyway, that was the start. Then bit by bit, Philippine channels were swamped with anime, lots and lots of it. And with the animania going on, so did the fanaticism to anything Japanese. Japanese restaurants have been thriving all the while but gained more attention from kids wanting to try that "sushi" thing they see on one or more shows they are absolutely crazy about at the time. And I was no exception. I became so obsessed with Japanese food that I drove my mom and dad near crazy to have our Sunday dinner in a Japanese restaurant. Those were my first experiences in eating Japanese food. Now, as most people know, Japanese food is known for some of their raw dishes and of course having to eat them with wasabi on the side. (Though I read somewhere that true...

The day started out pretty well. I was actually playing with my cutie little angel all morning. The worry of puncturing my kid's eardrum was actually at the back of my mind. We watched Ratatouille and Despicable me while I prepared breakfast. Time went by fast and I was actually reviewing chemistry at work. I knew that I had some catching up to do since I was not able to come to work last Thursday and Friday. But somewhere along, there was a turning point, the day suddenly took a turn for the sour. I was suddenly feeling depressed. One, my period is creeping up on me. Two, I was doing some research and behold! The Pinoy MD scholarship will be discontinued this school year. Three, I don't have enough money to fund my dream. Four, I have class with a student that I really, really dislike. Five, my dinner sucks. And so the list goes... As the day wound down, I actually felt a little better. During the torturous class with student X, I was actually telling myself, "Well yo...

Don't you just hate days when nothing seems to sit right? I know I do. The day actually started really well, it wasn't raining for one... But maybe my period is due and maybe partly to blame would be my medications, I just don't feel like doing anything today. Blame it on hormones! But I really hate this day... Today is chemistry day and I have to get psyched with my review. After all, if this dream does become a reality, I should get used to "always" studying. Every free second should be dedicated to reading and understanding. Then again... how do you deal with the annoyances you encounter and not let them stack one after the other? I can feel my patience slowly slipping. Why does the world have to be full of annoyingly stupid people who aren't using their brains properly? Sorry, I am just really, REALLY annoyed right now. I have to learn to deal with annoying situations and not let them stress me out. After all, if I really want to succeed with this ...

The weather is a bit depressing today. The sky is gray and it had been raining lightly all day. It's colder than usual, and the lazy bug bites again. This is particularly one of those days you just want to lay around in bed and sleep, drink hot chocolate or eat some hot instant noodles and watch anime re-runs. But alas, you have responsibilities. So you get up and make breakfast. Carry the screaming toddler who just loves to watch you cooking. You ponder how to get a copy of that Physics book you need for your review while waiting for a call from a job you are eyeing to land. You go on your day, automatically as if programmed. I wish there were more excitement to the day. But alas, you just have to settle with what you have. Anyway, like any other day, this too, shall pass. Today is Physics day. I just have to figure out how to get a copy of a Physics book, as well as a Chemistry book for my review. These so far are my first trials towards my impossible journey. But hey, as...

And so another blast from the past I found from memoirs... I never saw who this was addressed to, but I think those who know me dearly would know. This is just so heartbreaking that I wanted to share and perhaps people can relate to what this person is going through~ Just when my life was getting better... Why the hell do you have to contact me when things are finally turning up? You know what, while we were talking earlier I realized a very hard truth... I was trying so damn hard to be someone whom you would deserve. I was trying so hard to live up to what you might want in someone. But then, no matter how hard or how much I try, I'm just never going to be good enough for you. I'm right am I not? I will never be someone you will learn to accept and eventually love. Then it hit me so hard... And you're not even a person deserving of the effort I am putting in. You're not worth the hardships I am subjecting myself to. Then I realize, I was so stupid and I wasted so muc...

Friendship is supposed to be something that builds you up. Something that is supposed to bring out the best in you. It's a relationship based on trust, love and respect. True friends are treasures you find as you go along life. They are the select few upon which you are confident to entrust your very life with. And one very special kind of friend, you will make, a best friend. That person is someone you'd bare your soul to in a heartbeat. Someone who shares your deepest sorrow as though they were their own. Someone who'd stand by you despite whatever hardship batters you down. This is what a true friend is...What a best friend is... Basically, they are a part of you no matter how much you try to exclude them. But then, where do you draw the line when they become more of a destructive force to you? When do you start to let go of that one person whom you shared those sweet and painful experiences of life? They become your enemies the moment they start to break you into pieces...